Be happy always even if its hard to do so. Always think that sooner or later, everything will be fine. You made a mistake, but that mistake is your blessing from God. He gave him/her to you for a reason. Surely, it is, at first that everything is hard to accept, but you’ll see when he/she comes out, you will have the greatest gift. And everyone, specially you, will be the happiest! But today, the important thing is, take care of yourself and the baby. God loves you and I love you. (kissmark)

This is so true.. Putting faith to people is not good. Better put your faith to God and to your family. Friends? Iiwan ka dn niyan. Hindi naman hanggang sa huli sasamahan ka niyan e. Araw araw ba nandiyan sila? No. Pag kailangan mo sila, dadating ba sila agad? No. And lastly, sa panahong nagiisa ka, sasamahan ka ba? No again. Unlike family and God, one call away lang.. Isang tawag lang, kahit ano man ang sitwasyon nandiyan sila for you.. Cheering you up, giving you the perfect advice and loving you unconditionally. Sometimes, life is unfair. There are times na parang lahat ng nangyayare sa buhay mo mali, minsan pahihirapan ka, yung tipong giving up is the only way to escape the hardship God gave you. But still, after all the downs, masaya na ulit. You’ll feel that life is the best thing on earth. Yung minsan feeling mo hindi pinapakinggan prayers mo, then after awhile, sunod sunod na blessing na dadating. Minsan nga hindi mo man hinihingi binigay niya e. 

This post is not against anyone, wala ako pinapatamaan. Just want to express my feelings.. I’m just glad na sa sitwasyong meron ako, hindi ako iniwan ng family ko. All my relatives are there, yes, I disappointed them.. But I swear, I will give my best para makabawi sknila. I just want all my tumblr followers to know how lucky and blessed I am to have a family like them. :>

Before you criticize someone else, take a good long look at yourself. It is not our job to judge others. That right belongs to God.

Judge me? Hate me? Okay. May mapapala ba kayo kung paguusapan niyo ako? Mga taong di ko naman ka-close bigla na lang nagmemessage at nangangamusta? What’s the problem with you guys? Pwede niyo naman sabihin sakin direct to the point e. Ba’t kelangan may paligoy-ligoy muna? After niyo ako pagusapan, makikipagplastikan kayo just to have some details? Ok. I made a mistake, is it a sign or a go signal para gumanyan kayo? Well, now I know. Just keep going. Si God na bahala sa inyo. I’m tired, tired of receiving messages na alam kong purong kaplastikan lang. May kanya-kanya tayong buhay. Just mind yer own.. Kbye

It’s March 24, Sunday. And yesterday is March 23. 1 year and 6 months na sana namin ni Jan. Before ako magblog, pinakaisip-isip ko mabuti if ready nako, to tell the whole world what I’ve experienced. Hello. It’s March already, sa 28 the 3MONTH-RULE is over. Yes, it’s finally over… I need to move on; from the pain he gave me. 

December last year, we are so happy together. We celebrate the Simbang Gabi together. We completed it. We had our second Christmas together. We’re the happiest couple at that time… Walang problema, walang issue and walang third-party. December 26, 2012, we spent the whole day together sembreak na kasi non. Ang saya ng buong araw, wrestling dito, wrestling doon. Yun madalas naming ginagwa e. Kilitian dito. Kilitian doon. Bawal ang pikon e. And unfortunately, that was our last day together. Last day of togetherness, happiness and love. Ang sakit isipin no? Na ang saya niyo lang tapos biglang BOOM!

December 27, 2012 we went to Concepcion Tarlac with my family. Nagovernight kami doon kase namatay yung kapatid ng lola namin. Jan went somewhere to watch a basketball game. When the night came, he was about to go home then I asked him a favor na ipaload ako. After non, I’m trying to reach him but he’s not answering his phone. I started to worry, almost 12am na din kasi yon. Then suddenly, I knew that he didn’t go home. He went to a café and played Dota. E before non, we had a deal na wala na munang Dota. I was shocked, nagwoworry ako and siya pala naglalaro lang ng Dota. Ni hindi man lang ako sinabihan na maglalaro siya. Ok lang naman e, basta nagsasabi siya. Yes, I’m a strict girlfriend, pero nalulugar ko naman. Nagalit ako. Hindi niya ako nirereplayan. Dala ng emosyon, nakipagbreak ako. Tiniis ko siya ng ilang araw, hindi ko siya tinext or ano man…

New Year’s Eve afternoon, bigla siya nagtext. He greeted me Happy New Year. Magkatext kame pero may iba na, may something na. What I mean is, dry na. Wala na yung spark. Hinayaan ko. Siguro kase dahil sa kasalanang nagawa niya and nasaktan ko din siya. New Year’s Eve na, magkatext kame sabi pa niya “love na love kita. Ikaw lang love ko”. So naging ok ako then after ilang hours bigla na lang niya sinabi na “pahinga muna tayo”. Nagulat ako, di ko alam irereact ko. Gusto niya ng pahinga. Nakakagulat. Nasaktan ako. Umabot ang New Year, I’m sad. Kase ba’t nangyayare yon sa amin. Jan 3, 2013 nag-mall kami ng mama ko. Nag-unwind ako. Yung phone ko nasa bag, since nakaback-pack ako hindi ko nachecheck. 7 na kami nakauwi and nagcheck ako ng phone, may 3 messages. Nagtext si Jan ng 4pm.

“Ui”

“May sasabihin ako”

“Ayaw ko na talaga. Ayaw na kita saktan”

Halos madurog ako. Gusto kong lumubog. Gusto ko siyang puntahan. Masakit. Di ko expect. I don’t know how to react. Di ko alam yung nararamdaman ko that moment. I cried, cried out loud. Tinatawagan ko siya pero wala, di niya sinasagot yung call ko. Nanginginig ako. Di ko alam gagawin ko. Tinawagan ko yung kaibigan niya, sinabi ko. And hindi siya nagsinungaling saken, sinabi niya na may babae na daw si Jan. Ang sakit, nadurog talaga ako. Para akong mamamatay sa narinig ko. OA ba? Pero totoo. Try to be in that position, masakit. Masakit na masakit.

The day after that night, I decided to go to his place. Para makapagusap kame. Yes, pumunta ako. It’s 9 in the morning. Sabi ng mama niya “usap kayo. Andiyan siya sa loob.”  Kakagising niya lang nung pinasok ko siya sa room niya. I sat beside him, 5 minutes. 5 minutes wala akong sinabi, I just cried. Sabi niya “dito ka sa tabi ko, higa ka” Di ako humiga, nagsalita na ako. Tinanong ko kung napano? Kung bakit nagkaganon? Bat siya sumuko? E sa dami ng pinagdaanan naming sa loob ng 1 and 3 months hindi kami sumuko. Pinarealize ko yung tagal ng pinagsamahan namin. Tinanong ko siya kung anong kulang. Pinilit ko. Niyakap ko siya kahit pumapalag siya. Ubos na ubos na luha ko. Tuyong tuyo na katawan ko kase nalabas ko na lahat ng fluid ng katawan ko. Sabi ko habang umiiyak, “ako na lang ulit” “ayusin natin to please” “balikan mo na ako” “hindi ko kaya” “mahal na mahal kita” “gagawin ko lahat” “magbabago ako” “ibabalik naten yung masayang tayo” “diba forever tayo?” “diba sabi mo ako lang mamahalin mo” “diba madami tayo pangarap” and guess what ano sagot niya sa lahat ng yon.

“AYAW KO NA. AYAW KO NA TALAGA”

“Nagkakasakitan nalang tayo”

“Hindi na kita mahal”

“Mahal kita dati, naubos na ngayon”

“Mas maganda ng sabihin ko yung totoo kesa sabihin kong mahal kita kahit hindi na”

Ang sakit diba? Sumabog ako. Sumabog ako sa mga narinig ko. Masakit. It was my first time. First time na magmahal at masaktan ng ganyan. Kay Jan ko lang naramdaman lahat, yung tunay na pagmamahal, yung saya na hindi ko naramdaman sa iba. Si Jan, best boyfriend ever. Oo, may mga time na nagaaway kame pero kahit ganon, hindi pa din siya humihinto na iparamdam sa akin na mahal na mahal niya ako. Si jan kasi yung taong mapride, pero pagdating saken, kakainin niya yung pride na yon. Siya yung taong gagawin lahat maging ok lang kame, yung taong itetext talaga yung mga tao sa paligid ko para malaman kung nasan ako, kung ano gngwa ko at kung kamusta ako. Yung magpapatulong para maging ayos kame. Yung hindi napapagod na pakinggan yung mga endless drama ko. Si Jan hindi materialistic, yun kasi pinakagusto ko. Maeffort siya in a way, yung ipagluluto ka, ibibili ka ng napkin, igagawa ka ng assignment at report. Jan never fails to make me happy. Hay. I miss him so bad.

Sa loob ng 15 months, madami na kami pinagdaanan. Mas mahirap pa nga, may nainvolve lang talaga. And siguro, sinadya ni God yon. Para for the meantime, matuto kame pareho. Simula nung naghiwalay kame, natuto akong mahalin ang sarili ko. Bigyan ng halaga ang mga bagay sa paligid ako at pahalagahan ang mga taong nagmamahal sa akin.

And now, March 24, 20313 11:37am, hindi ko masasabing I will move on. I and Jan have something to do, for our future. Ang bait ni God, he make a way para I and Jan will be forever. Time will come ibblog ko yung about don. Pag nasettle na ang lahat. Jan and I will be together, not now pero time will bring us back together. I want to thank God for it. This blessing will bring us back together.  Just pray for us. Thanks for reading =)

-          Maycie Basilio Sabordo

For you to relate in this blog, read my last blog. So yun na nga. 2 weeks na din ang nakakalipas. Wala na talaga. We are never ever ever getting back together. He’s in a relationship. Could you believe that? Kakabreak lang namin last december 28 may new girl na agad siya.. Yes, It’s confirmed. Official na sila. I want to be happy for them pero mahirap. Lalo na ngayon, wala pang 3 months oh. Hello! Wag ka magtataka kung bakit hanggang ngayon masakit pa din. I maybe the imperfect one pero I can say that I loved him perfectly.  Oo, di ako perfect, may pagkukulang ako. Pero kahit papaano, I’m always making a way para makabawi. I accepted all his flaws. I supported him in everything. I’ve been there with him through ups and downs of his life. Hindi ako bumitaw inspite of the trials na pinagdaanan namin. We’ve been together for 15 months. I always choose him over my friends. But still, it’s not yet enough.

Hindi ko alam anong meron yung babaeng yun at mas pinili niya yon. Maraming nagsasabi, pakatatag lang ako. Na hindi daw sila magiging masaya. Na infatuation lang yung nafefeel nila sa isa’t-isa. Well, sana nga tama sila. Na naeexcite lang sila kaya ganon. Na babalik din siya soon. Na makakarealize siya. Na ako ang mas kailangan niya. Hay! :( Ayaw ko na umasa. Pagod na utak ko kaka-isip. Pagod na mata ko kakaiyak. Pagod na pagod na talaga ako. :( 

All I want right now is to feel better. I want to find my happiness. I want to be stress-free. I want to live my life to the fullest AGAIN. I know, time will heal everything. I’ll be fine soon. Soon! 

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Hello. I just want to share something. Nangyare lang kninang 9:55am. :) I went to his place. Usap ang hiningi ko. I cried a lot. I’m so desperate uh? You can see it through my eyes kung gaano kasakit nararamdaman ko. I love him, I do. And hindi ko pababayaang matapos lang kami ng ganun. It’s my fault. Everything is my fault. First time ko ginwa to, ang magmakaawa at umiyak sa harap ng lalaki. Pero wala, pahinga muna daw. Babalik din daw siya maghintay lang ako. Nakakaawa ako diba? Namura nga siya sa mama niya e, bat daw ganun siya. I love his mom, she’s giving me courage to hold on. Marami na kami pinagdaanan at mas matindi pa dito. Alam ko, magiging maayos din ang lahat. Nararamdaman ko :) 

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ABOUT ME:

► Name ➔  MAYCIE BASILIO SABORDO

► Will you answer all questions truthfully ➔ Yes of course.
► Are you single ➔  No
► Are you happy ➔ Yah.
► Are you Italian ➔ No.
► Are you German ➔ No.
► Are you Asian ➔ Yes.
► Are you angry? ➔ No.
► Are you Irish ➔ No.
► Are your parents still married ➔ Yes. :)

TEN FACTS
► Birth Place ➔ Pampanga
► Hair Color ➔ Chocolate Red
► Eye Color ➔ Dark brown
► Birthday ➔ October 03, 1995
► Mood ➔ Happy-inlove
► Gender ➔ Female
► Lefty or Righty ➔ Righty
► Summer or winter ➔ Hm? No choice, summer.
► Morning or afternoon ➔ Morning :)

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE 
► Are you in love ➔ Absolutely yes.
► Do you believe in love at first sight ➔ Yes. :)
► Who ended your last relationship ➔ My decision.
► Have you ever broken someone’s heart ➔ Hm? Maybe, yes.
► Are you afraid of commitments ➔ No.
► Have you hugged someone within the last week? ➔ yizzzz
► Have you ever had a secret admirer ➔ I really don’t know
► Have you ever broken your own heart? ➔ Yes. :(

TEN CHOICES
► Love or lust ➔ Love
► Lemonade or iced tea ➔ Iced Tea
► Cats or Dogs ➔ Dogs. 
► A few best friends or many regular friends ➔ Many many many regular friends!
► Television or internet ➔ Internet
► Pepsi or Coke ➔ COKE.
► Wild night out or romantic night in ➔ Wild Night Out :”>
► Day or night ➔ Night
► IM or Phone ➔ Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
► Been caught sneaking out ➔ Not yet. Soon maybe.
► Fallen down/up the stairs ➔ Yes :<
► White water rafted ➔ Never
► Finished an entire jawbreaker ➔ Yiz. (one week)
► Wanted something/someone so badly it hurt? ➔ Yes
► Prank called a store ➔ Yah. Haha
► Skipped school ➔ Yes
► Wanted to disappear ➔ Yes. Sometimes.

TEN PREFERENCES 
► Smile or eyes ➔ EYES.
► Light or dark hair ➔ Light.
► Fat or skinny ➔ Skinny 
► Shorter or Taller ➔ Taller
► Intelligence or Attraction ➔ Intelligence
► Hook-up or Relationship ➔ Relationship
► Funny and poor OR rich and serious ➔ Funny and poor. 

ABOUT ME
► Last Phone Call ➔ JAN DAVID
► Last phone call you received ➔ JANDAVID
► Last person you hung out with ➔ JANDAVID
► Last thing you ate ➔ Nutella Sandwich
► Last thing you drank ➔ Sting
► Last site you went to ➔ Tumblr
► Last place you were ➔ At his place

RELATIONSHIPS
► Are you in a committed relationship ➔ Yes
► When was your last relationship ➔ September 23, 2011 up to now.
► Do you still love them ➔ My past, as a friend. My present, REALLY.

FAMILY
► Do you and your family get along  ➔ Yes.
► Would you say you have a “messed up life” ➔ Nope. 
► Have you ever run away from home ➔ No.
► Have you ever gotten kicked out ➔ No.
► If so, how long ➔ I answered NO. :)

FRIENDS

► Do you secretly hate one of your friends ➔ I don’t. I’ll just tell them straightly that I don’t like them.
► Do you consider all of your friends good friends ➔ YES
► Who are/is your best friend(s) ➔ MANY TO MENTION
► Who knows everything about you ➔ MY BOYFRIEND AND MYSELF.

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